The Secluded Cove

After my ordeal with the man Milo yesterday, I took that hot bath and once my chores were done I headed to the springs. Mostly, I wanted to soak my hip in the comfort of the hot and bubbling springs as I am in quite a bit of pain but I think it is not something I should bring up. The deep bruising will fade soon enough. As well, I needed some distance and sought it with Aris' permission by this trip to the springs. I swam with the man from Port Kar, Mortis, as he is quite a bit of fun, he though ended in a scuffle and I ended with Ivy wagering over the outcome of the fight. When it got a bit too rough, the two of us were hoisted onto Marcus' shoulders and he took us to a quieter pool. Dumped into the pool, my silks were deposited into a pile by the side of the spring and I watched Ivy sent to Aris to service him. I will admit I am boggled by this interest he has in Ivy and truly wonder why I get the glares and indifference.... perhaps... I will seduce him.

Left alone with Marcus now I found myself a bit nervous as our last encounter had run me off to protect myself from hurt and confusion. Love and loyalties sometimes blind me to what I must do as a slave. Perhaps that is why Marcus is a draw for me. I crave him, he keeps me in check because it is so easy for me to fall back on how I love Max and the easiness to isolate myself away from other men. I am no longer a companion.. I am a slave, a hot blooded slave long asleep. It was easier to become a free woman than to re-introduce the slave that once was.

I had expected cruelty from him again but he caught me off guard and was nice. He has his views, he see's himself as my Master while owned by another and I will admit that I do seek out his attention .. perhaps I am a selfish woman.. Marcus put me to use, I had not been with him in that way since the night I was chained to the post in his chambers and upon that post earned the privilege to sleep wrapped around his legs. Once past my heart I do writhe well, like any other slave and once done with me he left me on the rock and had me perform my slave needs while he watched. Soon I was sent away from him and Aris done with Ivy collected me and brought me back to Max. My Master was not there and it was not long before I was bathed and asleep, I woke some time later and he was there next to me sleeping, smelling like the paga den he had gone to earlier in the day.

Maximus ~ much of the night I watched him sleep. I am so angry at him and feel a level of hate for him right now that I can not easily shake yet... he is my Master now and I must obey him, in that I am heated. Forced to endure what I must, He putting me to task making me being what I am now. He has changed... he was once my Owner and I loved him anyway.. now he is being my Master.. I love him more. Emotions will fade.. as he said yesterday, it is his right to know everything I feel and think...

I think .. finally.. we have traversed the rocking waves and dangerous rocks.. do I dare think that we have taken the turn on the bend to smooth sailing? one can hope.