I give up.

Why I was surprised is beyond me. Cruel to be cruel blindsided me. Why would I be outed when I have tried to be his friend and there was no purpose to put me in such a spot. It is not like he is waiting for me to drop to my knees begging to be his again and in honesty, my soul is burned out. I don't have the energy to kneel to a man again. It takes too much out of me and recovery takes forever.

Or maybe the problem is that I continue to care about people. It has been me approaching him, it has been me offering to help him, it has been me showing interest in him and his life as a friend. I was blind to the fact that he doesn't show these things back toward me and that should have been my first clue. Well, I thought he was back when he was at Destiny Point and brought me there to visit.

There I go thinking I am worth something again... my history proves otherwise.

I
give
up.